Monday, April 21, 2008

Yearning

My heart has been going through this vast array of emotions lately....some I like, some I don't like, but in the end I love them all and must embrace them.

For those of you that may not know me too well, I'll fill you in on something about myself: I think WAY too much. I'm a thinker, a ponderer, a wonderer. My soul, my heart, my thoughts run deep. So deep that I tend to over think, over analyze, over emotionalize a lot. But it's me, I must embrace it, and at times learn to reign it in.

Lately I keep thinking about Africa, and how much I ache to go there and serve. My goal is to hopefully get a Doctorate of Physical Therapy, and then be able to go and serve in Africa for periods of time. How feasible this will be, I don't know, but my heart aches to do such things. When God made me, He created this spot, a nest in my heart for Africa; for its people, its children, it's poverty, it's sorrow, it's ache, it's beauty, it's joy.

Trying to go back to school is going to be really tough, so I hope and pray that it is attainable.

.......what has God made a space in your heart for, what has He nested in you that you ache for?

2 comments:

kjsonntag said...

orphans and foster care. it seems doable once kevin is out of school ... but how is there this deep ache in my heart now, yet i feel like i can't act on it? is the purpose to grow it? to grow me? to give me certainty He has called me for a greater purpose than to just live in a house with 2.5 kids with a white picket fence (you know what i mean by this ...) but to give life, a home, happiness, and the knowledge of Jesus Christ to children who might not ever know? and should i even have my own kids or only adopt?

thoughts ...

Pollly19 said...

you should post pics of your sweet new ride!