I haven't had much to say lately, hence why I haven't posted anything in quite some time. The last few months have been good, fun. I love summer. I even love the heat, even when I am sweating to death.
Anyhoot, the past couple months was filled with a few birthdays (one being my own), which was great, Katie and my mama made it absolutely wonderful and then to top it off I spent it with them and my friends!!
Life has just been...funny lately. I can't quite seem to find a niche in things, between my job, church, friends....I just feel rather..."in between". And because of the that "in between" feeling I feel rather lonely and lost, and that loneliness is turning into hopelessness.
Why do I share that??? I'm not quite sure, I don't you usually share that sort of thing, but I had a rather moving experience on Sunday night. I'll keep the experience brief, but I had the opportunity to be prayed for by people I barely know, but have really come to enjoy. They laid hands on me and just prayed over the hopelessness I feel in my life right now. And I must say even 24 hours later....I still feel....different.
I don't want to walk through my life feeling hopeless because I am just waiting for the next thing to come, whether that "thing" is good or bad, I feel like I am always waiting. More often than not I feel like I am waiting for life to take another shot at me, and all the while just hoping God would just give me a break and give me some grace.
I don't know....I'm not out of this season yet, I am simply in the midst of walking through it....praying for God to give me the grace to keep going, and the hope to know greater things are yet to come, and ache to want better.
....until next time
Love the least