I felt for some reason today (for reasons that will make no sense if I try to explain it because my mind runs in rabbit trails all the time, and things correlate that shouldn't correlate and find connections that shouldn't have connections) that I needed to look up in some book of the Bible the verses 33:3 so I went to the 2 books of the Bible that I was certain had 33 chapters and went from there.
"O Lord, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress. At the thunder of your voice, the people's flee; when you rise up, the nations scatter."
"Sing joyfully to the Lord, you righteous; it is fitting for the upright to praise him. Praise the Lord with the harp; make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre. Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy. For the word of the Lord is right and true' he is faithful in all he does. The Lord loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of his unfailing love. By the word of the Lord were the heavens made, their starry host by the breath of his mouth. he gathers the waters of the sea into jars; he puts the deep into storehouses. Let all the earth fear the Lord...."
Its interesting to me. The Bible is God's word, it's God breathed, it is truth. And yet....sometimes I sit and read this truth, I look it dead in the eye and say...."I don't know if I believe you", or just blatantly say "I don't, I really don't believe you"
I'd had hopes that 2010 would be a much better year than 2009. It still holds the ability to be so, but right now. It does not. Right now it has put such a bitter taste on my tongue and such angst in my heart that sometimes I'm not sure I want to try and stand underneath the weight of it.
I've watched, listened, and stood alongside many in the 36 days of 2010 who have and are deeply grieving, aching, and trying to withstand what this world is handing to them by bucket load. And my heart weeps.
And then, God reminds me at 1:20 a.m. as I'm getting in to bed, that I need to look up some random verse...."go on" He said, open it up.
And the TRUTH tells me.....:
That we should continue to ask God to be gracious to us
That God is our strength EVERY morning and our salvation in times of distress.
Salvation- That's a term that I didn't fully understand in this terms of this text. so I looked up the different meanings of it (thank you Dictionary on the iPhone)<-----shameless plug, sorry.
Anyways, I have always thought of salvation as the act that saves me from sin, from evil. BUT it can also mean "saving someone or something from harm or from an unpleasant situation". BINGO! that's the term of salvation I needed to hear.
So what is it Abba? What do we need to ask for you to be our salvation as I even type these words, today, right here, right now. Because I look around Abba, and I see distress........
The other truth told to me tonight:
that the earth is FULL of his unfailing love
and that I should sing to him a NEW song.
Abba, what is it that we are missing? Because the song is missing from our souls. Through the fog we fail to see the unfailing love that the world is FULL of.
In the dark night we find ourselves in Abba.....what song shall we sing?
Abba, I pray that tonight though, that YOU would be our salvation in our distress, that YOU would be gracious to us. Help us to see, to taste, to touch, to hear, to feel, to know, to believe, that your UNFAILING love is all around us, and in that Abba, even in the dark, may we sing a NEW song.
Give us our song....for we ache to hear the melody in the chorus of your presence.