This song made me weep tonight.... I love it. I can't wait for them to release it on an album.

I was able to see them to perform this live a few months back...incredibly moving

Lyrics:
Turn Down the Music
If were hungry would we give you food
If you were thirsty would we give you drink
And if you were a stranger, would we let you in?
What would be the song the sing we’d sing to you, but never mean?
Would it be an empty hallelujah to the King?

Turn down the music
Turn down the noise
Turn up Your voice oh God
And let us hear a sound
A people broken, willing to love
Give us Your heart oh God
A new song rising up….

And if you were naked, would we give you clothes
And if you were an orphan, would we give our home
And if you were in prison, would we visit you?
What would be the song the sing we’d sing to you, but never mean?
Would it be an empty hallelujah to the King?

Turn down the music
Turn down the noise
Turn up Your voice oh God
And let us hear a sound
A people broken, willing to love
Give us Your heart oh God
A new song rising up….

Bridge:
Let it be our worship
Let it be our true religion
In this world, but not of it
Holding onto our confession





Despite some aches that I am going through right now, this song puts things into a better perspective for me. That in itself makes me want to cry.

I guess I wonder what I'm really doing to "turn down the music". What "would be (is) the song I'd sing to you, but never mean, would it be an empty hallelujah to the King?"

There has been more going on in my brain and my emotions than I care to go into, especially on a blog, however I will say this. I have a tendency to turn up the music in a figurative and literal sense. Silence in deafening to me. I don't wan to think so I don't sit, I don't bask in silence, in fact I flee from it. Therefore, I not only miss out on what God is trying to work on in me, but also I miss out on how I am supposed to be truly living out the 2 things God asks of me: Love God, love others.....

I'm life feels so trivial, there's so much bigger than me and what crap I feel like I'm in and dealing with.....it's not right.

This blog is just a jumble of words, but I have a lot going on in my brain so I'll just end it here

turmoil

.....I was hoping to do a better job keeping up with my journal, but life has been really chaotic for me between work and just being friggin' busy most nights of the week.

I hate it because it's 12:19 a.m. and I can't sleep. My soul is twisted in endless knots, therefore, my stomach is too. There has been a lot of turmoil in the relationships in my life recently and it bothers me to my core.

I admit that I have the ability to be confrontational, to address tough issues with people that you can tend to want to avoid. But I'm confrontational at times because my deepest desire is for peace. I don't like dissension, I don't like people arguing, it tears up my soul to have relational tension....I hate it, hate it, hate it. I'm passionate about my family and my friends and when those two worlds have turmoil and the waters get stirred up creating a storm of anger and hurt, frustration, and sadness....it creates turbulence in my life. It's consumes me, every facet, because I care deeply about those that matter to me....so much so that it keeps me up at night. The issues consume my thoughts, rob me of my joy, and make my soul ache. it's all I can think about, because all I want is for it all to be right, and I ache to make it right.

.....I can't seem to make it right lately. I can't seem to make it all work out and fall into place and make it work. Which is why I'm sitting here awake in the middle of the night. The relationships in my life aren't right, therefore nothing within me or around me feels right......it aches and I hate it.

Picture of the Day #17 & #18

Katie and I's gutters on our garage are growing foliage....we think its funny.


#18 Aren't they cute! Supposedly they didn't know they dressed alike. Adam and Kris you're going to be missed when you move to Ukraine. I don't like it, but I'm excited for what God has in store for you!

Picture of the Day #'s 4-16

Ok so I haven't been downloading pics as often as I should but here they are (cue drum roll):

#4 This is a picture from my birthday/birthday party, I don't care that it's out of order, I love these girls


#5 This is where I live..... I love this neighborhood, I love these fences...I love this life


#6a This is my dash torn out (by yours truly) to install my iPod Car Connector to free my life/my car of CD clutter...a....men. So before:


#6b After.....:

#7 I have a tendency to do very random things (at my own expense) for a good laugh (for other's and myself). Hence why I chose to let Melissa draw a smiley face on my tongue...with a permanent marker - it burned off my taste buds for a few days...no lie.


#8 "Somewhere over the rainbow...."


#9 Katie and I doggysat for Jack and Sadie....sheer madness


#10 Concert in the Park at America The Beautiful Park in Downtown CS


#11 Please note the little boy wearing nothing but his whitey tighties and cowboy boots on the top of the picture (mind you we were in the middle of a very crowded park).....good golly this was hilarious to me


#12 My pops planted these for my...they are doing great Pop! Thanks again!!!


#13 Rockies game ....Love that field. Good friends, good game, good time


#14 This hat is growing on me, I was really hating myself in it at first. I'm learning to love it


#15 Celebrating Sarah's birth. I love this girl. I'm blessed to call her my friend.


#16 Welcome to my hell. I spent 10 minutes staring at this huge beast in my room (The size/span of it was bigger than a silver dollar); breaking out into a cold sweat and nearly hyper ventilating trying to figure out how to kill since Katie wasn't here to rescue me from it. From a girl with a very big fear of spiders, this is my personal hell. Even after I killed it I almost slept in my car. It was 3 days ago and I'm still debating about that. I killed it from a distance with a Swiffer Sweeper.

Birthday Thanks and 27th Year of Life Photo of the Day #3

I realized that I haven't fully shown my appreciation towards everyone that made my birthday great.

My roommate and bestie Katie and my wonderful friend Carey helped me put on a fan-friggin-tastic birthday party. They set up a scavenger hunt around downtown Colorado Springs for those that wanted to join before dinner....it was rad!!!!

I had a blast and everyone else did too!

Thank you to EVERYONE that joined me for my birthday to celebrate, for those that called, sent text messages, and wall posts on facebook to wish me a Happy Birthday. I felt extremely loved - y'all are amazing! Thank you thank you thank you!

I'm looking forward to making my 27th year of life great. Go big or Go home right?!?!

So here's the 27 years of living and on to 28!!!!! What God has in store I have no idea, but I'm praying for God to shape me into something closer to His image.

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Pic#3

My pup is friggin' cute, especially when she cocks her head like this:

27th Year of Life Picture of the Day Pics #1 & #2

#1


This is our scavenger hunt team for my birthday! Kevin, Adam, and I. One of the clues was at BJ's Velvet Freeze...LOVE that place

#2


These are the Toms I got from Katie for my birthday. I loooove them. Thanks Katie!

27 things to do before I turn 28

I turned 27 yesterday and I have been contemplating for a bit about how to make this 365 days of my life between 27 and 28 different. So I said to Katie the other day....maybe I'll find 27 things to do in my 27th year of life that have to be accomplished before I turn 28. Some of them will be tough, others just things I want to do.

So I'll begin the list today, and although i don't have 27 things yet, I'll be revisiting this list over the next couple weeks and adding to it until I find 27 things. so with that said here it goes:

1.) Complete list of "27 things to do before I turn 28 on June 6, 2010"
2.) Read the Bible 1/2 way through (no I'm not trying to be extra spiritual, I am needing more spiritual discipline in my life and this is an attempt)
3.) Be able to jog a 5k
4.) Be able to jog a 10k
5.) Go Skiing this winter
6.) Take at least "photo of the week" (52 total or more)
7.) Hike the incline 3 times
8.) Go to Maroon Bells to see the fall colors
9.) Weekend road trip to destination TBD still
10.) Read 5 non fiction books
11.) Spend 2 months straight not listening to the radio in my car
12.) Plant a garden
13.) Commit more time, energy, and effort to letting my family and friends know how much I love and appreciate them and why I do.
14.) Hike a 14er
15.) Visit 5 Breweries in Colorado (I know that's not many considering how many are here, and one of them has to be the New Belgium Brewery)
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16.) Visit and eat at 7 local non chain restaurants (gotta support the locals)
1.) Leon Gessi's
2.) The Drive In
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17.) Complete (Jog/Walk) Jack Quinns 10x's to get a free t-shirt!!! before the end of summer '09
1.) Date unknown
2.) Date unknown
3.) date unknown
4.) 7/14/09
5.) 7/21/09
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18.) Camping Trip with friends (hopefully to Ouray)
19.) Visit the Duffy Roll Cafe in Denver at least 4x's - the best cinnamon rolls I've ever put in my mouth and eaten....the best
20.) Begin purging from my life the "stuff" I keep but don't need
21.) Bike to The Air Force Academy from my house 4 times or more
1.) 6/27/09 with Katie
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22.) Commit to more random (and often unnoticed) acts of kindness.
23.) Pay off a huge chunk of my debt
24.) Visit the Cheyenne Zoo and ride the sky ride (I haven't been since they added all the cool new stuff)
25.) Conquer Super Paper Mario
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......that's all I've got so far. Any suggestions?